A month to your birthday

Today is December 27th.
A month away to your birthday.

I'm kinda speechless right now.
Don't know what to write.

I'm a bit bored right now.
Nothing to do.
My mind keeps thinking about you, my happiness.

Hanya satu pintaku.
Jangan pernah berubah.
Tapi jangan juga berpura-pura jika hanya ingin menyenangkan hatiku untuk sesaat.
Apalah arti bahagia jika hanya sesaat?

As I wrote this, I was laying on a bed in a hospital.
I don't know what to feel.
Should I be sad or should I be happy?

I received overflowing supports from my family and friends thru Facebook, Twitter, Whatsapp, and text messages.
They say that they love me.
Nothing beats the joy of being loved.

What makes it better? It's you (yes you dimwit).
What you said means a lot to me.
I want to feel it forever.
Or at least I want it to be the last feeling that I feel in my life.
Let me take the joy of being loved as I walk into eternity.